I'm just so frustrated with everyone, no one understands what it is like to be me. It's impossible to open up to someone, because anytime they see that something is wrong with you, you have a disorder or any weakness, they can't be friends with you. Even if you can get past that, it's still hard, because you don't think alike at all. You don't ( Read more... )

ever since I've moved here, everything has been different. a lot of things have gotten closer to normal, but it's so hard to relax and let down my guard and be myself here when you quickly learn how you have to put on what I like to call the bitchy face and go out to school or the store or wherever. How can I feel comfortable when I have no family ( Read more... )

you are always an endless road of empty promises, each one bigger than the last. i can't handle it, i really can't. it holds me back, it makes me not able to have feelings for new guys in my life, or the possible new guys in my life. You indirectly cut me down everyday, when I'm not good enough to come visit or call or anything like that, and then ( Read more... )

what are you supposed to do when you know that you really need to concentrate on school and graduate in 3 years, but at the same time, you see this person, who you have seen for almost ever, and you know he's the one. if you are supposed to be with someone, it will be him. how do you go about telling him that you could see yourself marrying one guy ( Read more... )

i hate this, within the first 2 weeks i'm here, i already have to go to the hospital because apparently i am allergic to some type of food, i just don't know what. I'm pretty sure it's something in the cherry licorice bites, because i've been eating a ton of those lately. anyways, i look like shit, with a yucky rash on my face and neck and my ( Read more... )

I don't know why, but I've never wanted to be with him more. I don't think it's the fact that I'm so far away or anything, something in me just really wants him to at least some be with me for a weekend. Maybe I just need a weekend right now, just to last me for like 6 months. I figure, I haven't really spent any time with a guy for about a month ( Read more... )

so i'm at a point where i really don't know what i should be doing. sometimes i think that i'm not ready for anything close to a relationship and other times all i want is someone to be with. it's kinda twisted. and then i keep thinking, 2 weeks and i'm 6 hours and how many hot guys away from here. and i don't know why but i keep thinking about ( Read more... )

so i've offically made it this far, hopefully i won't get too stressed out from this move and now working on all my stuff, since it seems like i'm the only one who is thinking about it, and yeah, it's like 3 weeks away, but 3 weeks isn't that long. i have all this stuff yet to get and still have to finalize lease stuff for my appt, and get stupid ( Read more... )

So it's officially my teeny tiny summer break...from now til july 1st. a little under two months. not bad, but it sucks, considering that i have to get everything ready, paint everything i want, pack up everything i have. but at least i can lesiurely do all this stuff ( Read more... )

so my lose weight thing has been going awesome....i swear if i keep this up i'll be perfect by july!! plus when i live by myself, i hate getting groceries and eating, so i definitely will keep it off. plus i'm getting the cash back from my taxes, so i can finish up my sex and the city series...and i'm super happy because my dad got me a dvd player ( Read more... )