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Aaaargh. Weigh-in tomorrow. I HATE being weighed, it makes everything so much harder. One minute I'm all resolved and know I must gain if I want to recover and get to a healthy point, but then I think, 'What if I've gained a pound? What will I do?' and panic sets in. I have some old photos of me before I became ill and mum says that is what I will ( Read more... )

It was my birthday on Friday (I'm 18 now :-D) and I think it was the turning point in my recovery. I can't believe that that was how I spent my 18th, miserable, depressed, worrying about food, calories and everything. I should have been enjoying myself. I couldn't do what I wanted. I couldn't go out to a restaraunt, because eating in front of ( Read more... )

Recovery is hard ( Read more... )

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After much consideration I've decided to go into recovery ( Read more... )

I got my confirmation letter from CAMHS (Child and Adolescent Mental Health Services ) today. I hate that name, people will think I'm insane when I tell them I've been there, lol. Anyway, I've got to see two doctors with my mum and dad and possibly my brother. I don't want that, how am I supposed to tell them things with my brother there ( Read more... )

I'm in hell ( Read more... )

I've got my blood test tomorrow. I'm not really scared about that, just the results, because if my potasium levels are low then I'll have to go to the hospital, which I don't want. I also might be anaemic and my pulse has slowed aswell ( Read more... )