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I've got my blood test tomorrow. I'm not really scared about that, just the results, because if my potasium levels are low then I'll have to go to the hospital, which I don't want. I also might be anaemic and my pulse has slowed aswell.
I hate how my parents are trying to talk to me about it, like they're the doctors and they know everything about what I'm going through. They read on the internet about why ana starts in some people and they're like 'Are you scared of growing up and getting older,' and stuff like that. I don't know why I'm like this. If I did it would be easier to stop and get better but I don't. And I don't want to get better either. They're making me eat four meals today, but I'm gonna go to bed at around half nine or ten so I don't have to eat supper. I made as small a bowl of cereal as I could get away with, and that was about 150 cals, had a teacake for lunch (about 300) and a 350cal dinner, so thats 800cals today, which is just really disgusting. I worked out a lot earlier though, so hopefully I burnt a chunk of that off.
Anyway, I hope you're all doing better than I am. Think thin!
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I hate how my parents are trying to talk to me about it, like they're the doctors and they know everything about what I'm going through. They read on the internet about why ana starts in some people and they're like 'Are you scared of growing up and getting older,' and stuff like that. I don't know why I'm like this. If I did it would be easier to stop and get better but I don't. And I don't want to get better either. They're making me eat four meals today, but I'm gonna go to bed at around half nine or ten so I don't have to eat supper. I made as small a bowl of cereal as I could get away with, and that was about 150 cals, had a teacake for lunch (about 300) and a 350cal dinner, so thats 800cals today, which is just really disgusting. I worked out a lot earlier though, so hopefully I burnt a chunk of that off.
Anyway, I hope you're all doing better than I am. Think thin!
xxxx