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I'm in hell.
I'm being forced to eat 4 times a day. Luckily I'm managing to keep it under 1200 cals, but its still sooooooo much and I feel so fat and disgusting and pathetic.
I fainted while I was having a blood test and my pulse went down to 42 (it should be over 60). My whole family knows now, telling them was so awful. My nan's both cried, I feel so guilty. I've been off school all week, I've got a few weeks off work, we might have to cancel my holidays and I can't go to university. I want to feel better, but I just can't gain weight, I can't. Until my mind is sorted out, ana will stay.
I'm exercising more now to burn off the extra calories. I'll go back to skipping meals over halfterm, it should be easier then because my parents will be sleeping later in the mornings. For now I'm being watched like a hawk.
Anyone got any suggestions for making them think I'm eating? They won't even leave me in the house on my own so I can't pretend to make food anymore. I just hate this, why can't they all leave me alone?
I'm being forced to eat 4 times a day. Luckily I'm managing to keep it under 1200 cals, but its still sooooooo much and I feel so fat and disgusting and pathetic.
I fainted while I was having a blood test and my pulse went down to 42 (it should be over 60). My whole family knows now, telling them was so awful. My nan's both cried, I feel so guilty. I've been off school all week, I've got a few weeks off work, we might have to cancel my holidays and I can't go to university. I want to feel better, but I just can't gain weight, I can't. Until my mind is sorted out, ana will stay.
I'm exercising more now to burn off the extra calories. I'll go back to skipping meals over halfterm, it should be easier then because my parents will be sleeping later in the mornings. For now I'm being watched like a hawk.
Anyone got any suggestions for making them think I'm eating? They won't even leave me in the house on my own so I can't pretend to make food anymore. I just hate this, why can't they all leave me alone?