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I got my confirmation letter from CAMHS (Child and Adolescent Mental Health Services ) today. I hate that name, people will think I'm insane when I tell them I've been there, lol. Anyway, I've got to see two doctors with my mum and dad and possibly my brother. I don't want that, how am I supposed to tell them things with my brother there?
My parents are being really supportive now, which makes it harder for me to keep restricting. Dad wants me to maintain the weight I'm at now until the therapy, but I can't, I still want to lose weight. I'm eating under a 1000 cals a day, you can't gain weight on that surely??
I want to get better, but I don't know how to go about it. The fear of gaining weight is still there, I don't think that'll go away for a long time. But my whole family is being really nice and supportive and I hate myself for causing people stress.
One more thing, I think my dad's taking the internet away from us, because of the images of models and celebrities on it and he thinks its affecting me. The only time I'll be able to post here then is in school, so I may not be on here for a while. Hope that doesn't happen though.
Take care lovelies xxx
My parents are being really supportive now, which makes it harder for me to keep restricting. Dad wants me to maintain the weight I'm at now until the therapy, but I can't, I still want to lose weight. I'm eating under a 1000 cals a day, you can't gain weight on that surely??
I want to get better, but I don't know how to go about it. The fear of gaining weight is still there, I don't think that'll go away for a long time. But my whole family is being really nice and supportive and I hate myself for causing people stress.
One more thing, I think my dad's taking the internet away from us, because of the images of models and celebrities on it and he thinks its affecting me. The only time I'll be able to post here then is in school, so I may not be on here for a while. Hope that doesn't happen though.
Take care lovelies xxx