Life goes on or so they. I wish i had answers more than dreams. But i dont, and never will as far as i can tell. My life has fell apart in various ways througout the years. Almost all related to mental illness. Oh, and as much as many creative people have had those issues; i can tell you right now...its mostly a coping mechanism, to deal with ( Read more... )

if i  could....ignore problems and pain, then you see in the end, id live through my disdain. Pain and feelings, good and bad, rule my life, as the always have. I feel in a way im giving up, but yet i still fight,  be that as is, or might.be or even become. SO as struggle is my middle name i struggle for my sanity and for fullfillment and happiness ( Read more... )

 Love is the only thing that has given me any solidarity in life. I need to have someone with me that at the very least will TRY to understand me.  truth is  if i dont i feel more at a loss than at anythime else. I try, and try, and try, to trust, in vain more than not. I try to exspress everything i can, but like a curse, if certain things are ( Read more... )

 Time and time again, distraction rears its foolish head. And try as i might to combat it. It wins more often than not. but if theres one thing i am, its the fact that i dont give up OR even give in. And im still happy with my life overall, regardless, of my twisted emotions, due to mental illness. So yes, i struggle on, but hey its life!