I think that there is something in the world that is trying to get me back for whatever wrongs I've done in my past life ( Read more... )

I'm starting to feel lost. Well, I've been feeling lost for a long time, but now I'm starting to feel like there is very little hope to keep me going. I've recently done some things that were needed to help me and Philip stay here in this place and to keep our lives going. The major thing was buying a car with him. We are now joined financially ( Read more... )

I'm falling apart. Why do I keep going? It's not for anything else but hope. It's all about hope. But why try.... why have Hope? Things are falling apart around me. I need to move, but with no money, jail time looming in the horizon, what's the point? How do I do it? When you put all your eggs in one fucking basket, how to you salvage ( Read more... )

I'm watching Smart People right now, and it along with the three Vicodin(which was prescribed) and two beers I've had are putting me in a mood that is neither happy nor sad ( Read more... )

I tell you, I really do hate moving. Right now I'm re-washing all my clothes so that I can put them into my dresser and try to find a spot for some of them in the closest, which Philip has taken most of with his clothes already. The office is a mess, but my desk is set up in there, and if I feel like getting some work done tonight I'll work on ( Read more... )

If the first 48 hours are telling me how my week will go, this week will be overpowering and will make me take time to myself in the days following it. Things are rapidly changing, some are simply a symbolic change that I am creating in my own world and some are based in reality and have an real impact on me and the way that I will move forward in ( Read more... )