I'm starting to feel lost. Well, I've been feeling lost for a long time, but now I'm starting to feel like there is very little hope to keep me going. I've recently done some things that were needed to help me and Philip stay here in this place and to keep our lives going. The major thing was buying a car with him. We are now joined financially ( Read more... )

It's funny how certain actions can make it seem like you've opened doors for things that you never wanted to take place. I feel that my computers are being used to hurt me now. I haven't had much will to be on my own computer. Being online only seems to cause me pain. Today I saw a simply amazing picture of Anthony on David's flickr site and it ( Read more... )

My lack of motivation has been troubling. I've been in a state of emptiness. I know that I'm nowhere close to where I want to be with my life anymore. And oddly enough, I know most of the resons why. It's just that I don't seem to make the changes that I need to make. Anthony and I have come to a civil relationship, well I say civil for lack ( Read more... )