Term's nearly over bar one pointless 2 hour Dramaturgy class tomorrow. Half the year have flown home or gone on holiday, lol! It'll probably be me and about 3 other people.

• Feedback week depressed me b/c all their criticism was exactly what I'd expected; 'You're great at language, now you've got to release physically.' 'Embrace your wildness.' 'Get ( Read more... )

Urgh, that was not a good weekend. Poor Man was very ill, which obviously was sucky for him but also for me. And reaffirmed my worthlessness. He keeps saying, 'you make me happy by yourself, I love you' and 'I don't think of you in terms of usefulness, it would be bad if I did' but I see no evidence of it. He made me listen to it in the car and ( Read more... )

We did a run of our badly translated playreading last night and it went surprisingly well. However thrown in with general good feedback, the director informed me solemnly that I've lost a lot of weight :-/ What? I'm sure I'd be the first to notice. But yeah, my average lunch consists of a bread roll, some melon pieces and a massive piece of cake. ( Read more... )

Worried that I'm off on a downhill slope again. And I don't know how to fix my man either. He managed to crash his car (I FUCKING FREAKED when he first told me but it wasn't bad and he wasn't hurt) so that's obviously made him depressed. But thing is, today till Saturday he's off on holiday to Cornwall, which I really thought would be his saving ( Read more... )

• Yesterday, one of my regular workshops was harder work than before and I don't see it getting easier. And for the money I'm earning...urgh. Kids have no concentration at all. ZILCH. And I slowly metamorphosed into a teacher- teachers don't really want to talk like that, I know that now. "GUYS, LET'S ALL BE A GOOD AUDIENCE NOW, SHALL WE?!" But there ( Read more... )

1) EVERYTHING is tainted by waiting for my RADA letter. It is driving me fucking nuts. Oh well thanks for killing me so slowly just waiting for news as to whether you will deign to allow me for a 3rd audition. I'm sorry, I want you too badly not to mind after a month-long silence ( Read more... )

Yay! The Siren's Call looks like it's going to be a great play. Ade was in a good mood tonight and we had loads of fun singing roudy sea shanties and hauling boxes from one end of the room to another. Bit intense with 4 of you, two very tall guys, crammed together on a box. I did get a full-on boob-crush at one point but you know! What doesn't ( Read more... )

My audition went **touches wood obsessively** well, I think. Or should I take it back? Nice peoples in charge. We did in the theatre, which I was really taken with because it was such an intimate space; low circle and high stalls. I could feel my words hanging in the silence afterwards- it was nice.

My gap year currently stands as follows:   ( Read more... )

You know, I genuinely foresee killing myself for hating how I look. Not a very glam death, but whatever, yeah, I hate myself. I try to imagine that now and then it gets better but no, actually it's still the same face. I honest to God don't know what to do. I would love plastic surgery but then my genes are shit and there's just so much to work ( Read more... )

Well, I think I've 1 and 1/2 essays out of a possible 3. And I've done 1 out a possible 1 long correction of my French coursework. So the week hasn't been a total loss.

Oom, sniff sniff sniff. I am very poorly. Been wandering round the house in this kinda rheumy haze, sniff sniff sniff. Dad's had his operation on his knee, so that should be getting ( Read more... )