I don't understand how I can go from having really great feel-good, focused days (exempla gratis: the last several days) to feeling fuzzy, confused, and like I've been run over by a truck over night. Thought I was just tired from a long day yesterday when I woke up this morning, so I figured if I got up and did something I would feel better, so I ( Read more... )

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Argh!!!! I am so frustrated. I hate being caught in the middle. I don't want to listen any more. I want my daddy to listen to something. I want him to TALK to me and not just throw up his hands. I hate not having an answer. I hate being sick. I hate that I can't hope. I hate being tired. I just want it to be done with ( Read more... )

And sometimes long conversations are really, really, really bad.

Today was day two of actually working at M-power. OMG, I'd forgotten how much I absolutely LOVE doing this. I help tutor and am a general office monkey whenever someone needs something. I like that. I like finding a solution when someone says 'hey we really need this problem taken care of,' or even just doing a mundane task like typing up something ( Read more... )

Last night I was feeling particularly not fuzzy (possibly stemming from the fact that I have not taken my doxipin since before thanksgiving), so I figured I should try to accomplish something on my incompletes (I mean, my tummy has been far too angry in the last week for sleeping, and I didn't expect this night to be any different). So for about 2. ( Read more... )

Ok, so two weeks ago it was necessary to proclaim that I am not a bug. Now, it seems, I must also make clear that I am not a pin cushion and do not enjoy needles being jabbed into my arm/hand/anywhere else a vein might possibly hide. 4th time to have blood cultures drawn in less 2 months. And I promise you, these will come back negative, just like ( Read more... )

So, today went as expected with my doctors each vehemently argueing why his position is the correct one and why it is foolish to not follow his recommendations. I knew this was coming. I've spent the last two weeks emotionally psyching myself up for today. Except, now one has upped the anty: if I don't consent to have this line pulled soon, I will ( Read more... )

You know, I hate answering the question "How are you feeling today?." I don't want to be whinny nor do I want to disappoint the person who usually is hoping that my answer will somehow express that on this particular day, I'm feeling well. However, I do not want to lie either. I have bad days, worse days, occational ok days, and rare good days. ( Read more... )

I had a fabulous Fall Break. However, today has been lousy and I am frustrated, so right now I'm gonna vent. Will post happy things tomorrow.

( Venting )