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My friend's mother committed suicide. There are no words. I haven't heard anything from her in five days, but I'm trying to not ask, lest she feels pressured by it. I hope she's OK. She's probably still at her Dad's house ( Read more... ) -
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I'm really embarrassed about my James Callis fandom up til now. I feel like I only recently woke up and realized I was totally neurotic, obsessive, and needy. I'm not sure if it was calculated - James is an empathetic person so of course he'll feel for me if I show I have issues - or if I just couldn't help showing all of my issues in the blog and ( Read more... ) -
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Trigger warning: fat hate, depression; feelings might change once this sadness is over
So Zachary Quinto apparently said something dumb about fat people. I wasn't even able to read what he said.
Is this gonna be a thing now? Are celebrities just going to come out of the woodwork and say assy things about fat people? Do I have to tolerate it from ( Read more... ) -
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So James Callis posts a video link on Twitter. I click on it and the title is "fat guy breaks chair in interview". Upon seeing the word "fat", blood backs up at the back of my neck, anticipating a major panic attack. This is it. He laughs at fat people, he posts videos about it, he'd see me as a joke.
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So I quit my Gallup job, finally. I'm doing every Tuesday until the end of June. The feeling is slightly nervous but excited. I dreamt I was in a community college and the class ended, and my coworkers were there. I felt some sadness, some pondering on what to do next. It was confusing. I hadn't expected for the class to end ( Read more... ) -
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Tried to read up on Binge Eating Disorder. I sort of fit the "grazing" thing (eating small amounts of food but very often). Most of the emotional issues are there ( Read more... ) -
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OMG Bad Boys Blue's "How I Need You", the Long Distance Mix! How nostalgic.
..It's actually a really repetitive song. It seemed way cooler back then.
"After what we've been thru, you've got to give me another chance."
"Or dear why."
"Yes, because it's me. I thought you loved me."
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Sometimes I feel like I'm a difficult person. I try not to argue or re-educate people most of the time, but I've rethought everything to the point where it might be a bit demanding to be my friend online. But the thing is, I can't go back to the things I used to believe, i.e. that fat is bad, diets work, marriage is for man and woman, you should ( Read more... ) -
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I think it'd be easier if there was a way to DEFINE gender, and what makes you a man or woman or something in between. Are there other genders? If so, what are they and how are they recognized ( Read more... ) -
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I have been doing too much stuff adn going to too many places and now I find myself unable to write everything out. Two days off may not be enough for this.
Brief bulletin points
-I may be genderqueer. I'm not even sure what I mean at this point. I'm not trans probably, I don't identify as a man and I doubt I ever will. But who can ever tell what ( Read more... )
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