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Tried to read up on Binge Eating Disorder. I sort of fit the "grazing" thing (eating small amounts of food but very often). Most of the emotional issues are there.
I got suepr super anxious reading the site. I could hardly breathe, my heart was racing, I had to stop reading because I felt life cannot go on etc. etc. WTF was that about?
Why do I get anxious? Is it a sign that I DO have the BED or that I DO NOT? It's hard to tell.
Although, judging by the BED site I read, depression might be the cause of BED. Which might tie into what my therapist said about the food stuff coming to focus when I feel better about myself in general.
There's a really deep dark pit inside me. I'd frankl rather die from overeating than deal with it. I just, I can't. I can't deal with it.
Maybe I'll be able to deal with it better later.
PS. I'm eating a huge chicken bacon burger with fries and energy drink and I have no idea if it's part of my eD or not.
I got suepr super anxious reading the site. I could hardly breathe, my heart was racing, I had to stop reading because I felt life cannot go on etc. etc. WTF was that about?
Why do I get anxious? Is it a sign that I DO have the BED or that I DO NOT? It's hard to tell.
Although, judging by the BED site I read, depression might be the cause of BED. Which might tie into what my therapist said about the food stuff coming to focus when I feel better about myself in general.
There's a really deep dark pit inside me. I'd frankl rather die from overeating than deal with it. I just, I can't. I can't deal with it.
Maybe I'll be able to deal with it better later.
PS. I'm eating a huge chicken bacon burger with fries and energy drink and I have no idea if it's part of my eD or not.