RIGHT okay so i should blog more when i'm good, not just when i'm feeling shitty. the weekend was crappy, full of me being all HURGLEGURGLE and hair-pulling and being mental and throwing my phone against the wall because people WOULD. NOT. STOP. RINGING ME. (how DARE people be concerned when i'm being panicky, JESUS.) am doing better now though, as ( Read more... )

i had the most amazing dream that i was having sex with a lovely, dark-skinned curvy lady; that i was in a theme park connected to silent hill that was full of empty hallways creepy from the whispers of ghosts; and that the melbourne anime convention was happening right next door, which i didn't attend because i find it boring as fuck, but people ( Read more... )

oh god i feel so good now that i've brushed my teeth lmfao ( Read more... )

i wonder whether this girl says hurtful things because she means them or because her english isn't good enough for her to understand how to use subtleties like tact. she claims to be really sensitive, and i do believe that she's a caring person at heart, but she's upset me so many times and i've just let it go because a part of me is willing to ( Read more... )

first day with short hair and i am fuckin' rockin' it. it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders (... and my head, literally). idk, maybe i'm just going through an 'up' phase and getting a haircut coincided with that, but i felt so fucking amazing today, it was great. i've got my energy and confidence back, and i went to work ( Read more... )

my god, what is with this nightmare year? it seems like all my friends this year is having a really rough time of it ( Read more... )

my day has been about:

o1. contract negotiation. most awkward thing ever, since my bosses are also my friends and i hate asking friends for money, but if i had just gone with what they had offered, i would have been extremely unhappy. we're still not done negotiating, but i'm not budging on my stance. i'm actually surprised that i don't feel bad ( Read more... )

personal questions meme (30 days)
( ganked from raych. )

things are starting to slowly fall into place and i'm overwhelmed by this strong surge of hope. it's weird, but very nice, and i want to cling onto it for as long as i can, even if i end up disappointed again. things are falling into place but all they need is for me to push them into place and make sure they stay there, and... i think i can do it ( Read more... )

strangely, after feeling so shitty and blue earlier today, i now just feel really disoriented and non-directionally determined. many things today make me feel as though i'm in kuala lumpur, and it's getting hard to convince myself that i'm really in australia because for the past few days the flashbulb memories of malaysia have been especially ( Read more... )