I've been thinking about my life, each point that there were real, genuine choices for me to make. At the time, I utilized my personal experience and the current understanding of the situation at hand to figure out my best course of action. Up until I felt myself stuck in a loveless marriage, just continuing to go through the motions, and then I ( Read more... )

🎶To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be🎶

In the last 24 hours, I've found out who would give A.J. the drugs she would take to escape her pain and problems, give her a lift and help her cope when she couldn't be with me. It was the same person who got it for all of them, and there were a couple of others he got ( Read more... )

🎶I think about the loveless fascination
Under the Milky Way tonight🎶

Change occurs, sometimes whether we wish it or not. There are moments when we find it has to happen as a catalyst that leads us to something beneficial or greater than we thought possible. Namfi will be heading to the west coast, as will Joy. Rahni is currently undecided, but her ( Read more... )

🎶Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading
From all the things that we are
Are not saying
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?🎶

The last week started out peaceful, though dealing with certain issues of icy weather and blustery days that made buildings shake and trees fall. Namfi had been terrified and was going to come over but was ( Read more... )

I found myself needing a break from everyone on Friday. I took the day to get out to nature, letting my feet carry me off to somewhere I'd never been, a distant meadow that let me lay back and listen to the dry grass shifting in the breeze, the sound of a nearby stream churlishly gurgling over the rocks that forced its course, as the sunlight ( Read more... )

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"HEY!!! You ruined my record man!"
Man, what a fun time! Last night, Rahni and I decided to check out a local spot that we could walk to from my former aunt's place, since I thought I was dog-sitting, the plan was she meet me there and once I had the pups closed up, we would head out for a bite and then check out a local band while enjoying some ( Read more... )

A friend of mine from high school complained about the "gloomy weather" this morning. He's been pretty down lately, from what I noticed, so I noted something for him. I love this weather, autumn leaves of varied hues show even more vibrancy to their colors when damp. The rain on evergreen needles and edges of buildings magnifying the prismatic ( Read more... )

Amani Albair said, "When people allow you to know about their pain and talk about it, take your shoes off. It’s a holy place. Be humble, be kind when someone shows you vulnerability."

When I spoke of my friend Paul Marene, I had been hoping to merely let others know what made me feel out of sorts, what the toxin was that was in my spirit and why I ( Read more... )

It's been interesting to see what Anya, Dy, Joy, Rahni, Tori, even Mara, Naya, Tammi and Xey are saying. The Sunflowers are speaking with one another, and it's astounding to see the clarity of how much each of them learned from what Grandma Tay and Val both taught, how much went to their very roots and


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