Two nights ago my husband tried to choke me and slap me during an argument. He ran to me and slammed me against the wall with his hands around my neck as he proceeded to pull one arm back to slap me in the face. He stopped himself but I pushed him to "do what he's always wanted to do"... he didn't but it was a breaking point.

I begged him to stay ( Read more... )

It's been a while... I say that all the time but as the months go by I start to wonder how much longer I'll keep this journal around ( Read more... )

And so it ends. I will update more later but for now, I just feel empty. In his eyes I called it off, in mine he made it final. I don't believe in blaming someone else for the end of a relationship when they're the ones still trying to keep it together ( Read more... )

Today wasn't the breakdown day. I spent most of the day in a daze.... tired, exhausted, and still thinking about the events of the night before. I've been finding myself to run back to the idea of comfort because, let's face it, I hate change... but I know it's not right. And besides, I know we're both better off on our own for now. Still, I ( Read more... )

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Another year has come and gone... and this marks the first New Year's I've spent in Seattle ( Read more... )

Once again this year, I feel forced to try to forget... rid my mind and my heart of people, events, memories... and just try to move on ( Read more... )