countdown to breakdown...
Today wasn't the breakdown day. I spent most of the day in a daze.... tired, exhausted, and still thinking about the events of the night before. I've been finding myself to run back to the idea of comfort because, let's face it, I hate change... but I know it's not right. And besides, I know we're both better off on our own for now. Still, I miss him. I mostly miss him being here in Seattle, or me being wherever he was... cuz we worked well together. We laughed, we could joke, and it was cool to finally have a guy friend that I was comfortable enough to fart in front of and be stupid and gross and un-girly. And I miss that. I miss that part of our relationship.
I've been hanging out with friends, though. Work this morning wasn't as bad as I thought it would be after almost getting my head bashed in with a light (the whole fixture dropped from the ceiling but was luckily still hanging by the wire). After one coffee and one chai later, I'm still awake after getting a little less than 3 hours of sleep.
Work was mildly exciting: I got to be the "manager on duty" (MOD) today for a couple hours. Thrilling. Not really, but still, it's a good first step. Tons of other sales associates have done that before but it was cool that I got to do it today. And I got to pretend to be a manager by checking a co-worker out of the store (checking bags and coats, etc). I gave people orders, told them where they were stationed, made sure they got their breaks, and wrote down the hourly info/reports. It was kinda nervewracking, actually... but it was fun in the end. And it was kinda short-lived.
I'm glad today that I had friends to hang out with, though. Otherwise I don't think I would've made it this far without a breakdown.
....But still, it's been an interesting day. I work early in the morning again, too and I'm fading fast.... so adiieu and goodnight for now...
I've been hanging out with friends, though. Work this morning wasn't as bad as I thought it would be after almost getting my head bashed in with a light (the whole fixture dropped from the ceiling but was luckily still hanging by the wire). After one coffee and one chai later, I'm still awake after getting a little less than 3 hours of sleep.
Work was mildly exciting: I got to be the "manager on duty" (MOD) today for a couple hours. Thrilling. Not really, but still, it's a good first step. Tons of other sales associates have done that before but it was cool that I got to do it today. And I got to pretend to be a manager by checking a co-worker out of the store (checking bags and coats, etc). I gave people orders, told them where they were stationed, made sure they got their breaks, and wrote down the hourly info/reports. It was kinda nervewracking, actually... but it was fun in the end. And it was kinda short-lived.
I'm glad today that I had friends to hang out with, though. Otherwise I don't think I would've made it this far without a breakdown.
....But still, it's been an interesting day. I work early in the morning again, too and I'm fading fast.... so adiieu and goodnight for now...