so it's over...
Just like the title says... so it's over. In more ways than just one: the four day weekend, my pseudo-crush, and my relationship...
Let's start little... the four day weekend was good and the time passed a lot faster than I thought it would. I filled my days with friends and good times and it was nice. The time that I did have to myself I enjoyed in the beautiful weather walking around. Life in Seattle is still slowly happening for me but at least it's happening...
As for the pseudo-crush... I think I'm over it. I mean, I honestly don't think he'd be interested in me (I think I kinda figured out that he ISN'T interested right now either, long story) and besides that, it'd just be weird. I'd rather be cool friends with him... you know. Hang out, laugh, talk, watch movies... like dating but without the romantic weird tension. So I'm just gonna give up and move along. What's the point anyway?
And then... the relationship. Both of us were avoiding it but I think we both knew it was coming. It'd been coming for a long time and for the past month it's been iffy... are we together, are we open, are we anything?... tonight was a pretty calm conversation where we decided to call it what it was: victim to distance and circumstance. The unfortunate thing is that I still wish we could hang out and talk and be friends... but again, that's going to be up to how willing we both are to work at that given the distance. And I know he'll be dating again, hanging out with more women, and the worst part is that I know I'm going to be jealous because part of that wishes it was me. Oh well. Who knows. Maybe we'll see each other again... I hope we do. But I know I probably won't be high on the priority list.
But now... it's time for some much needed sleep. I've got work at 8am and it's almost 4am right now... tomorrow, it will seep in all that's happened and perhaps then is when the breakdown occurs. But for now, I'm just tired...
Let's start little... the four day weekend was good and the time passed a lot faster than I thought it would. I filled my days with friends and good times and it was nice. The time that I did have to myself I enjoyed in the beautiful weather walking around. Life in Seattle is still slowly happening for me but at least it's happening...
As for the pseudo-crush... I think I'm over it. I mean, I honestly don't think he'd be interested in me (I think I kinda figured out that he ISN'T interested right now either, long story) and besides that, it'd just be weird. I'd rather be cool friends with him... you know. Hang out, laugh, talk, watch movies... like dating but without the romantic weird tension. So I'm just gonna give up and move along. What's the point anyway?
And then... the relationship. Both of us were avoiding it but I think we both knew it was coming. It'd been coming for a long time and for the past month it's been iffy... are we together, are we open, are we anything?... tonight was a pretty calm conversation where we decided to call it what it was: victim to distance and circumstance. The unfortunate thing is that I still wish we could hang out and talk and be friends... but again, that's going to be up to how willing we both are to work at that given the distance. And I know he'll be dating again, hanging out with more women, and the worst part is that I know I'm going to be jealous because part of that wishes it was me. Oh well. Who knows. Maybe we'll see each other again... I hope we do. But I know I probably won't be high on the priority list.
But now... it's time for some much needed sleep. I've got work at 8am and it's almost 4am right now... tomorrow, it will seep in all that's happened and perhaps then is when the breakdown occurs. But for now, I'm just tired...