"I did write you letters. I sent them. I know for a fact that of the five that I sent, at least three of them were destroyed because the trucks got blown up by I.E.D.'s."
~ Dilan, 2 days ago over the phone

... Pieces of my heart were blown up in Afghanistan. It seems a small thing to cry over... A selfish thing, really, given that real people were ( Read more... )

I dislike using the word "abuse" to describe my relationship with Dilan. I feel that it can be easily over-used, and flailed around like a flag for attention. I don't want attention for the hurts I have endured in my past relationship-- mostly, I simply want to move on from it. But I don't think I can move on from all of it until I've had a chance ( Read more... )

They say that being an Army (or insert your branch here) Spouse is one of the hardest jobs in the world... Others say that it's the Soldier's job that's the hardest, and that every Service Member in the United States Military is automatically a hero...

I must, respectfully, disagree.
Being a Soldier, does not a Husband make.
Neither, does ( Read more... )

It'd been over two weeks since we talked in any fashion. I sent a couple IMs of questions about whether certain things had gotten done, but didn't get a response. I finally sent an email just because enough things had bubbled up in my head about the separation and finances, and the rent check, and the harddrive of the laptop I spilled coffee on... ( Read more... )

...I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life ( Read more... )

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I ( Read more... )

I guess I should really get around to explaining it in a bit more detail, as I really don't mean to leave some of you out of my life, it's just that it's gotten a little hard to write about in an open entry.

Two years ago, March, I finally broke up with my long-term boyfriend after months/years of friends advising me I needed to leave.

Two years ( Read more... )

"...Lets talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it

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As you might have guessed, everything is not all's well in Castle Ever After.

Music is very important to me, to my well-being I must be able to experience my world through sounds, I need to feel my ups and my downs in songs. And I feel lost and out of touch when I accidentally go for extended periods of time without music. And today, I don't ( Read more... )

So. My husband says, on MSN while I am sleeping:

"I have some serious concerns we need to discuss, but I am not sure if I should wait till I get home or not before mentioning what they are." (Or something to that effect. I proceeded to spill coffee all over my laptop shortly afterwards, so, we'll have to see if it survived later.)

Mmm... Should I be ( Read more... )