I hate these nights when I feel like I have such weight, such crushing weight, just sitting right above my lungs waiting to be lifted. I always feel the need to write about it, or speak to someone ( Read more... )

WARNING LEVEL: RED

Do not attempt to flee. Take cover and pray to survive the storm. Hold on to any stable objects present.

[Update 10/16]
Coast is clear.

I'm alive. Just to let you know. I've been in this restless/productive mood. I am either in the mood to do everything (hence "productive"), or I'm in the mood to do absolutely nothing I should, yet not in the mood to do nothing. The restless mood sucks. It's getting me to go anal about a lot of things though, for example, the setting of the block, ( Read more... )

[Two days late, sorry, I was busy]

WARNING LEVEL: RED

Do not attempt to flee. Take cover and pray to survive the storm. Hold on to any stable objects present.

Eh, entries to tell where the hell I've been will commence later.

Right now, je suis trop paresseuse. (I'm too lazy.)

Watched more about Count Basie (<3) and Benny Goodman in music theory since Bates is having us listen to a set of DVDs about jazz. Also watched bits of Ella Fitzgerald (I love her so much!) and Bille Holliday. Benny Goodman = one ( Read more... )

gah! I hate my freakin' body! Mon Dieu me donne le cadeau du mois. Le merveilleux cadeau. Freakin' shoot me now. Actually, no, wait 'till after parade. Oh crap! Parade with this??? JE DETESTE MA VIE!!! Pourquoi maintenant ( Read more... )

I did all my homework... kinda. Yeah, I finished most of it anyway. Went to the doctor's, I'm gonna be okay. The problem with me should dribble out in three weeks or I'm REALLY in trouble. Don't ask, I won't tell you. Not here anyway. I went to see Godspell. CAMERON WAS FREAKIN' AAAAAAAAA-MMMMMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYY-ZZZINNNNGG!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAHHHHHH ( Read more... )

I'm so awake, the narcotic hasn't kicked in yet. Megan, Jasett sounds so amazingly strong. What I'd give to be as strong as her. I have been so weak these past few days. Bitching and moaning. That's exactly what I don't want to be like. Extremely cranky too. I feel my muscles slowly deteriorating. I love my body. -cough- Sorry that I snapped, James ( Read more... )

My body's doing that weird thing again. It's asleep, but my mind's wide awake. I hate my body. This week, my body has been betraying me so much. The sleep, the stomach aches, the illness, etc. I also need to get in shape, maybe my immune system will shape up as well. No, kids, I don't think I'm fat, but I really think I need to start lifting ( Read more... )

Today sucked ( Read more... )