Three day weekend...
I did all my homework... kinda. Yeah, I finished most of it anyway. Went to the doctor's, I'm gonna be okay. The problem with me should dribble out in three weeks or I'm REALLY in trouble. Don't ask, I won't tell you. Not here anyway. I went to see Godspell. CAMERON WAS FREAKIN' AAAAAAAAA-MMMMMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYY-ZZZINNNNGG!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I saw Danny Mathias there. It was awkward, but I tried. -sigh- I waste so much time. I sit there and think, "hmm... I feel like calling so and so and ask how they're doing" but what do I end up doing? Something else. I should stop doing that. I don't like losing touch. I don't like growing distant. I don't like not knowing where I'm going. I don't like my whining. I waste way too much time, I think I'm taking my correcting "wasting too much time on the computer" one step further and making it just correcting wasting time in general. I've grown way too distant from everybody else and I don't like it. I also use the word "I" more than my liking. It would be easy to just talk in third person, but that's cheating. It's time to stop digging into myself for pity because of all the crap that's happened these past few months, it's time to face the real world and live. Afterall, a lot of those problems really won't matter at all in five years. Stuff like the deaths of people I barely knew shouldn't affect me this much. Death isn't a happy thing, but if I've never met the people who were close to my parents while they lived in China, it shouldn't affect my everyday life as much. Sure, death is traumatizing, but I think you see where I'm going at. Point is, I shouldn't let things get to me, like Carrie says. I should listen to her and other people more often and listen less to my father. Carrie's, Megans' (yes, multiple Megan's), and Scuba's words help build me. My father's destroy me. Why is it that humans tend to focus on the negative things? There's so much we could choose to care about more. So many happy things, so many things that could benefit our society as a whole. But instead we tend to choose, as individuals, to let things eat us up alive and bury ourselves in our problems. I don't think I'll ever understand why that is.