Hello Friend. It's been awhile ( Read more... )

It's been some time since I've last been here, and it's probably because I lost sight of why I was writing down my personal, innermost thoughts on a public medium for everyone to see. It seems to me that when we're young and fueled by zealous verve and impulsive youthfulness we need to get everything out there and to let the world know exactly how ( Read more... )

In case you don't already know this, let me break it down for you:

Your tweets, your status updates, done at random intervals of the day to let people know what random things you do or what banalities you get up to or where you've been or what you're doing or how you're not feeling great etcetera etcetera, are pointless because of this very simple ( Read more... )

So it's November already and the cold's setting in and December's in the wind and I can almost, almost, see that light looming right at the end of this very long tunnel. And you know what? 2011 has really just come and gone almost indifferently, and now that 2012's about to begin, everything starts to matter more. I ascribe added significance to ( Read more... )

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I'm not comfortable with how we never talk
And I've missed you since you went out for that walk
It's been 13 months since May
It still feels like yesterday

I was scared to fix what I had broke
It's a lonely place to live with just a ghost
There is love left in my life, I will see
But you still hurt me

I can still see all your clothes thrown on the floor
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Today I went to Borders for one last time ( Read more... )

9/11. A 102 minutes that changed the world. United 93, 175, 11, 11 and 77. World Trade Center 1 collapsed at 9:58 am. WTC 2 followed at 10:28 am. A total of 2,996 people died that morning.

It's all in the numbers. An act of such shocking atrocity, boiled down into a few digits, statistics in history.

I was 10 when it happened. I remember thinking it ( Read more... )

I'm not quite sure why I'm experiencing these gaps in my memory, or what they actually are. They're like white blanks that abruptly disrupt my flow of thought, just this barrier standing in the way, a breakdown between the synapses. It's really frustrating sometimes. I forget words, forget events, forget what I did just 5 minutes ago. It started ( Read more... )

Lately I've been feeling as if the friends that I've made in Army aren't the kind of people I would even have befriended in a different environment, a different time and under different circumstances. It's not that I don't like them or anything; they're nice people, they mean well, and I wish for good things to happen to them. But sometimes I feel ( Read more... )

People all have some ideal of how things should be, how life should pan out, a game plan and expectations and hopes.

Life, on the other hand, is an agent of anarchy and chaos. It is unruly and untameable, violent and irresistable. It flies in the face of all the best laid plans. And it always wins.

Reality will crush your expectations and snuff out ( Read more... )