Yeah, it's been awhile. Christmas, parents came out. It was nice. Then I gots my braces. They hurt. Then the oral surgeon chopped up my mouth in order to extract two baby teeth and put brackets on the embedded adult teeth that were supposed to kick the babies out long ago. That didn't go so well, dry socket, necrotic tissue, etc etc. At ( Read more... )

I am envious of people who seem to know who and what they are and should be. I hate what I've become and I don't know the way out because I don't know my goal. I've been adrift all my life.

Sometimes, when I can't sleep at night, I think out long posts, tweak them word-for-word, until they're perfect. Then, after I awaken, I remember what I wrote in my head, and realize how stunningly lame and banal it all was. I still have whole posts backlogged in my head that I'll probably never write.

Namely discovering old acquaintances from high school, the few you're actually interested in discovering, anyway. Dear ppl from hs: sry I was such a cooze. Yrs, C ( Read more... )

I'm not even remotely Catholic but I feel like my Grandpa died, the one that you never visit and only occasionally hear about and shake your head at his outmoded ideas and know he's just a product of his time and you'll never change the way he is, and at least he's not spouting the hateful rants your crazy evangelical aunt does ( Read more... )

HURDY BLURDY FOO WAHHHHHHHHHHHH ( Read more... )

Another spinal tap coming up.

Followed by an appointment with the neurosurgeon to discuss surgical options to bring my intracranial pressure down since the medications have failed me.

Goodbye, bank account.

Also I got a new cell phone, and some of you were lucky enough to get email with the number. NOT SPAM.

Going for a second opinion thing on Monday hopefully for head thing. Crossing fingers for imminent death

I've had one long unrelenting headache for a week now and missed work and even had I gone I know they would be all LOL THE CHEESEHEAD HAT TOO TIGHT, EH??? because I'm the Wisconsin girl but I didn't go and instead I took my uninsured head to the doctor and he gave me a bunch of muscle relaxers and codeine and stuff after recommending a MRI (only a ( Read more... )

The last several days I've had no time to even check email, between work and more work and sleeping and also work ( Read more... )