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Strange feelings today, a little bit painful and a little bit wonderful. Seeing Mary Heiny Sensei always changes me in some way. I think last weekend stretched my heart ( Read more... ) -
Pilgrimage
Santa Cruz! Great fun with great friends on the way down, and this morning as I hit 85 and stretched toward 17 all my senses reached and strained and raced ahead of me to be the first to detect the Holy Land. The closer I got the stronger the feeling became --she has a part of me, and while I am away from her I am not whole. I fell into her ( Read more... ) -
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Missed training three times this week. All kinds of convincing justifications and excuses, but really I just needed a break. Not a break from training, not that at all. Every night that I missed class I spent some time wishing I was there. No, I needed a break from the opportunity cost, from having no room for anything else in my life ( Read more... ) -
Dressed in Black
One wall of the women's dressing room at the dojo is covered in mirror. Sometimes when I walk in after class, hakama in hand, I catch peripheral glimpse of myself and am ever so briefly taken aback: who is that? It's like putting on face paint and then forgetting about it until you see yourself in a mirror hours later. Who is that girl with the ( Read more... ) -
SNO: UR DOIN IT RITE
THIS is what Portland snow should be. It appears overnight, a morning surprise to those who retired early. Ideally on a Saturday night. Sunday morning, the world is white. No where to be just yet, cuddle up under a blanket, admire the beauty, and spend an hour drinking tea. By late morning, the roads are clear and we can all get on with our ( Read more... ) -
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Last weekend I chopped wood and sat in water. Physical outside work shared with family members, preparing for next winter. There's a reality to it that my computer-bound daily life lacks. Monday felt so strange, sitting under fluorescent lights emailing paperless paperwork to move imaginary numbers around ( Read more... ) -
2009
I should write this. I'm not writing nearly enough lately ( Read more... ) -
Happy Melting Day!
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Happy December, let's train.
December came early this year. November's standard issue misery was over by the time the calendar called out the halfway point. The last few weeks of calendar-November had a definite social festive Decemberish air about them. And now it's December in name as well ( Read more... )