Strange feelings today, a little bit painful and a little bit wonderful. Seeing Mary Heiny Sensei always changes me in some way. I think last weekend stretched my heart ( Read more... )

One wall of the women's dressing room at the dojo is covered in mirror. Sometimes when I walk in after class, hakama in hand, I catch peripheral glimpse of myself and am ever so briefly taken aback: who is that? It's like putting on face paint and then forgetting about it until you see yourself in a mirror hours later. Who is that girl with the ( Read more... )

I've been not so posty lately ( Read more... )

November. Tom Waits and I agree about November ( Read more... )

The more time I spend in Portland, the more I like it there and the more strongly I come to believe it's a place I can stay. Plenty of time in town this week, exploring different neighborhoods and nomading sites, learning our way around at the street level and getting a sense of how different miles translate into minutes ( Read more... )

"How you do anything is how you do everything ( Read more... )

So I was thinking about those moments when a person is off in their head somewhere, and another person wants to ask what they're thinking. But the question disrupts the thoughts, and then the train of thought moves more quickly than the response, so by the time they answer they're not thinking the same thing anymore, and if they don't want to ( Read more... )

For the past few weeks, I've been down. Feeling slow and heavy, hard to focus on anything, aimlessly surfing the net and avoiding doing anything that actually matters. Tuesday was more of the same, until around 1am. Suddenly I was UP. Alert, awake, inspired. My course materials had just arrived. I did the first chapter and then forced myself ( Read more... )

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( I'm done now, I promise )