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Dr. Dre?
I'm not sure why I am this tired. I'm certain that yesterday's events are significant ATTRIBUTING factors as to why I feel this way, but none the less I am not sleepy, but exceptionally tired. I sat with Julian last night, pondering the growth in my homosexuality, which has come only because I have a girlfriend now? He believes that in 48 ( Read more... ) -
Too Misty
So for the first time in three months, I went out of town. People keep ask'n me if i went home... Tally is my home, my space, but I did go and see my mother yesterday. I'm not gonna lie though, seeing her was a bonus definitley...big bonus, but it's definitely not what made me convince Julian to get dressed and drive 3 hours to brandon, to be ( Read more... ) -
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I'll take one from Julian's book and throw some memorable moments down in no particular order:
- watching Julian change into a different person
- seeing lovedrug play live twice
- the answer to: "So are we gonna go out or are we gonna keep doing
this gay shit for the rest or our lives?" - leaving acacia
- leaving brandon and moving to tally
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Christmas Eve
I do believe that I just sat in my bed for about seven hours, looking directly at my wall because I could not bring myself to fall asleep. I know that I have a problem. I have this pressing tendancy to over-analyze just about everything in life. I will differ a vast majority of the blame to my father though. He does analysis for a living, ( Read more... ) -
Find another straw quick....
I need to catch a serious break. I need something to go my way; something to offset all the stuff that's falling apart this very moment. I need $500.00... not to squander, not for desires, for actual need. But the person that I should have called all along has been watching and waiting for me, and I still won't...even though this hole is ( Read more... ) -
For me for him...
I have just arrived home from one of the most humbling experiences of my life. I just got done filling in for Adrian Crutchfield at Cafe Cabrunet. I should have slept before the gig, because it started at 9:30 and we got done around 1:30, which is the longest time I've ever played saxophone without stopping, except for Mariano's Scotch refill ( Read more... ) -
doesn't always have to be super deep julian
I went to bed at 10:30 last night!!! I think that's the first time in 3 months that I've actually shut my eyes before 12. The girls came over last night and I made them ribs, but I didn't eat. They again just kept looking at me with that real confused look the entire time. That look that's like, "who is this guy and why would he come and ( Read more... ) -
Don't know how to fix it
Today is not a complete waste, however, I feel so unaccomplished. This overwhelming feeling of lack has begun to consume my thoughts throughout the course of today. I arose at an early hour this morning and meditated on the words to John Mayer's "Something's Missing", and I believe that the title alone has driven me to this computer to try and ( Read more... ) -
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There's a decision to be made, and I hope that I make the right one.