I am not afraid of being sick or getting sick anymore ( Read more... )

I always thought it would just be better this time.
thAt id be smarter or Quicker.
WiseR?
But im just as dumb.
in love.

26 was good ( Read more... )

I always thought i was one of the guys
Apparently i was just one of the girls guys wanted to fuck.
Even my best friend doesnt talk to me because he has a lady now.
Good to know i was just a hole to fuck

I have a constant battle in my head over my lifes worth.
The same things that make me want to do live explore more are the same things that might kill me.

The battle comes in like waves and its aleays high tide.

I spent ten years "knowing what i want"
Excuse me while i spiral out of control now that i dont.

I live life like i play poker.
Im either all in or all out.
There is no gray area.
I put it all on the table
Or i walk away from it.
And when i think it may be a bad idea but im enjoying the game
I just put on a poker face and ride it out anyways.

Im just sitting here upping the ante.

Ten years ago on a halloween i told all of my friends that i loved him ( Read more... )

I have an issue with beingneither a completely detached sociopath who doesnt have feelings or emotions or love or a past or trust ( Read more... )

There are a lot of good people in my life so I don't knoq I waste time with the bad ones ( Read more... )