leaving love.

[xylzr]

Ten years ago on a halloween i told all of my friends that i loved him.
It was the first time i actually felt in love.
He was the only guy i ever loved.
At least in that way.
It was the kind of love that was indestructable
It was the kind of love that makes you blind
And dumb
It was the kind of love that when it left i couldnt function
This morning while he was driving us home i looked at him
I stared at the face that i already had memorized
I heard his laugh that i missed so much
And i realized for the first time that im not in love with him
It feels so weird...
But kind of nice