Tonight at church, I took in alot. Barb talked about sex and the effects of it, she let her self in the open and told everything. About half way through the lesson, I started to cry, the things she has gone through, is stuff I am going through right now. Sex has always been a big thing with me, It's something I have done without thinking twice.. I' ( Read more... )

Gosh, It's been so long since I have done this... SO much has changed.. Life has been pretty good.. Living everyday as if it were my last.. I'm moving in 3 months to gilbert cuz my mom is getting married.. Which i think will be good :). . I got my tongue Pierced finally.. I've been al ot happier.. I still miss josh a whole bunch.. N still cry about ( Read more... )

Last night was like the best night of my life! haha, Chayse Took me to the Anger Management tour 3!! IT was so fucking awesome!!! .. First, LiL Jon n the East Side Boyz came on with pitbull.. It was so sick, everyone was dancing n throwin their hands up haha.. then MOBB DEEP came on.. me n chayse went crazy when they came on hahaha. Then 50 n G ( Read more... )

I just want to start off by saying.. Friends.. are.. Amazing.. Chayse, Rendee, Britta, Jackie, Brittany, Kat, Andrew, Jason, Stephen, Brian, Blake, Jill, Court, Kait, Leah, Kim, Jen, Melissa, Matt, Shayan, Fadi, Aaron, Alex, Bre, Anthony, Marcus, CJ, Scotty.. I couldn't handle everything lately without seeing most of you everyday. You are it in ( Read more... )

Hey all. I'm going to try to start doing this again, I really need to start letting things out. I have built up so much sadness, happiness and anger in the past 2 months so it's time to start writing again. My life Is going pretty okay, I'm having my up's and down's, but, It could be worse. I miss Josh more and more each day, Tears still come, ( Read more... )

i don't know anymore... everytime i hear " dreaming of you " by Selena, I break down and cry.. this is something only Josh's dad knows, but ever since Josh died, I have blamed God. If you know me, before he passed, I went to church ever Wed. and Loved God More than anything.. I haven't gone once since he has left n I can't bring myself to even ( Read more... )

It's so hard looking back at past entrys and Seeing Josh's Name.. I Love you and Miss you.. You were the last person to deserve it.. But I cannot wait until I see you again baby!

oh my, i have had this for so long! anyways, I'm going to start writing in this a little more! Today was incredible, I honestly have some AMAZING friends.. Court calls me this morning on her senior ditch day n says, get ready.. we are kidnapping you for the day and we are not telling you where we are going, so her n kait come n get me, we go to ( Read more... )

I Melt in you're Eyes.. I Love you baby<33..

the last 4 years of my life have been the roughest years of my life.. I've made mistakes, made friends, lost them, had a blast, fucked over people, made people smile.. and I really think I owe a few words to some people.. I'm not going to mention names, but you will hopefully know who you are.. this is in no specific order.. so take the time and ( Read more... )