Life Goes On
I just want to start off by saying.. Friends.. are.. Amazing.. Chayse, Rendee, Britta, Jackie, Brittany, Kat, Andrew, Jason, Stephen, Brian, Blake, Jill, Court, Kait, Leah, Kim, Jen, Melissa, Matt, Shayan, Fadi, Aaron, Alex, Bre, Anthony, Marcus, CJ, Scotty.. I couldn't handle everything lately without seeing most of you everyday. You are it in my life right now. I can't express how much you all mean to me, I really cherish you all. :o)
I was in chayse's room last night, We were laying down n Watching Bruce Almighty... And I just started crying.. The Part where they show him he is in heaven, It just hit me, That's where our baby is. I sat there n Cried in his arms with so many emotions running through my head. Chayse is right, I need to start trying to move on, but it honestly, is so hard. If I hear .. Selena " dreaming of you " - My Chemical Romance " The Ghost of you " - The Used " Blue and Yellow " - and or any song from Mike Jones or Trillville.... My Heart stops.. That's josh... Rendee Called me this morning.. Josh's phone's finally got turned off.. yet, he is still signed onto his phone.. I see signs of him everyday, most of them make all of us smile, but there is times, where I miss him so much, I don't even go out.... I drive by it everyday, I think i just need to get out of here for a while..
Last night was cool. Went to Dinner with Chayse n His mom.. Chayse suprised me with the Laguna beach season 1 dvd's .. Oh man I was SO PSYCHED. Sat at home n watched it all day today.. anyways, Went to his house n got ready after that.. Then we went to CJ's cuz it was his birthday.. I was excited to see everyone cuz I've been busy the last few days and haven't been able to see them!! .. hung out with the crew, then Chayse n I went to his house early.. Watched bruce almighty, We died my hair and Layed there till like 3.. Pretty much <3 that boy.
Tonight, Who know's whats going on.. I'm having a feeling the Crew is gunna wanna go to the UH.. which means .. BEER PONG. mmmhmm.
... Don't Drink n Drive .. xoxo- tash