i hope i did the right thing.
im so lost.

i wish i knew what i was doing. i love my life and i have so much fun, but for some reason it's always temporary. i feel like im never going to be content. i have a permenent case of "grass is greener" syndrome. it sucks, because i have ZERO direction.

one day i'll want some crazy fast paced life. ill want to be in a city. ill think about what it ( Read more... )

im going to Amie's wedding tomorrow ( Read more... )

hello my old friend.
im back to vent somemore.

sta-ressed.

i can't sleep cause im too antsy.
i can't write my paper b/c im too antsy to focus.
i wanna go do something spontaneous like go watch the sunrise in cocoa or something to calm down
but i can't b/c i need to write this paper.
i would pull an all nighter
but i can't b/c ill probably be pulling one ( Read more... )

so its another new year....

i was going through some old lj posts and i read my new years resolutions from 2005....
and in four years, im still trying to accomplish half of them. its just depressing.  
this year my only resolution is to do whatever i need to do to make myself happy.
selfish as it seems, i think it's my best one yet. ...and general ( Read more... )

WHATTHEHELLAMIDOING?

im so crazy.
end of story.

but this week has been insane.
just like college is supposed to be.
zero regrets.

<3
you walk around like you do
you shake your head like you knew

I'm going to have a heart attack.

im not kidding.
if I don't get A's... like pretty much 100's on ALL my finals im not going to make grades.
im so dumb for skipping my random attendance classes.
and screw teachers who take random attendance.
if i don't get a 2.5 i can kiss my scholarship and being president goodbye.
im teetering SO close to all Cs.
im so ( Read more... )

so im probably an idiot for putting too much on my plate.
im already stressed because I have NO idea what im doing in school or with my life.
or for money
or jesse.
or my sleep cycle.
or my ambitions.
whatev.

I'm welcoming Kappa Delta hell with open arms.
hello miss Prez for the next 12 months.

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
Life is a maze
and ( Read more... )

soooo um. ive been facebook stalking for like an hour and a half cause im awake and kinda drunk (cheers to working at a bar) =P

why are all my friends so seemingly happy. and seem to know where their lives are going

or at least
*in a relationship
*married
*pregnant
*working full time

-all of which mean you know what you are doing by default.

AHHHH

im just ( Read more... )

i don't even know where my brain is.
800 places at once.
i went to bed at 7... and woke up at 2:30.... thanks john mayer.
now ill be up til at least 5.
oh well.
so worth it.

my day was perfect.
it had its ups.
downs.
pauses.
fights.
long silences.
hours of talking.
precise plans.
some spur of the moment decisions.
and an assortment of disagreements.
it was ( Read more... )