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i know it's been forever since i have updated, but hear me out ( Read more... )

so here i sit on the last night of september. it's chilly outside, and i like it. i haven't been doing anything too important (except for donna) lately. i went shopping today with some money i stole out of my mom's purse and bought some new music. i actually picked up alkaline trio's 'good mourning' and i like it. blake wouldnt shut up about how ( Read more... )

oh man, some good times have sure been had lately with donna. i will spare you the details, but know it's good.i've been looking for a job. there's this little record store near by that's hiring. i know they wouldn't hire me, but i suppose i could at least try. also, a few other places not worth mentioning are looking for people. i need some ( Read more... )

i can't believe i'm up so early. i haven't woken up before noon in ages. i must be getting sick or something. last night i passed out because i had such a terrble headache. i'm not happy right now, but im not all suicidal or something like that. im just sort of... here, you know? i've been doing a lot of serious thinking about donna, and even blake ( Read more... )

oh man, i almost completely forgot about my journal there for a while. my bad. so yeah, its been a while since i last posted. blake is a lot better, but we broke up. i really didn't see that one coming. but HE broke up with me. he ended it. he said it just didn't feel right and we should have just stayed friends. which is what everyone else was ( Read more... )

i'm so worried about blake. it's so scarey on so many different levels. for one, he doesn't look the same. there is this frightening blank look in his eyes. and his voice... its so shakey and weak... and well, just not him. i really don't know what to do. i mean, the guy came super close to dying. there was blood everywhere. he could be dead right ( Read more... )

i dyed my hair black. it looks awesome. i'm very pleased ( Read more... )

ok, so i'm out with donna last night, having a great time when i get a call. it's blake. i'm thrilled to hear from him, becuase i hadn't talked to him in days (and that is definitely not a healthy relationship). and it was kinda loud where we were, but i could still tell that blake was crying. i tell him i'll call him back in a few. i went to go ( Read more... )

so life hasn't been going too good. fights are terrible, almost unbearable. and no matter who's fault it was or what happened, of couse i will take it out on myself. but of course this is my fault. blake is so fucking possesive. but i think he's really convinced that i am more in to certain female friends of ours than i am to him. i will say that ( Read more... )