my period's late and i have no idea what i'm gonna do.

fuck.

so what happened was that we all went out really drunk and i met this guy at a club and we fucked in jody's car. i'm almost 100% sure that there was no condom involved. and now i might be pregnant.

fuck.

got so drunk this weekend.

might have done something bad.

really bad....

so it looks like jody, donna and i are on the fast track to finding our own place, which rules. we've vowed to forever stay friends with benefits. getting in an actual relationship might get messy...and neither of us want this friendship to get all fucked up ( Read more... )

my mom told me yesterday that i have a month to find a place. she said that since i have a job now and i graduated but am doing nothing with my life, because i didn't go to college, she doesn't want me in her house. dad is not happy about this but he doesn't think he should say anything because he's not my real dad ( Read more... )

i'm finally done with the training at the flower shop, and they seem to like me enough. i work about 45 hours a week now, which sucks, but apartments in the city are so expensive that i need to work that much. donna is still working at her data entry job, she makes about $10 an hour. better than me ( Read more... )

i'm so fucking depressed right now i can hardly see straight.

it doesn't seem like i'm going anywhere. the flower shop is ok but. it sucks, going places, doing stuff all the time. fuck it.

i will probably end up cutting tonight.

last night donna and i went to a club in the castro... for those of you who don't know, the castro is the gay part of san francisco! she heard about it from her friend jake who we met up with there... let me tell you, so hot. then he took us around and introduced us to all his gay friends, i can't even remember most of their names... but they ( Read more... )

jody came over today. it was pretty fun to hang with her for the first time since i was in the hospital. we talked alot. she's so amazing. one of those friends you have that you're just really happy to be around and proud to know. she cheered me up alot today. because before she came over, i couldn't stop thinking about this ( Read more... )

shit's so boring around here ( Read more... )