i want to scream for the things that i don't have ( Read more... )

wow, i feel like so many new things have happened in such a short time. life in new york seems to be on constant fast forward. i've been here 7 1/2 months. in the 2nd month i wanted to fucking leave! that would have been a mistake. i think i had just never in my life been challlenged by a city. every where else i have ever lived had been so easy to ( Read more... )

i started the master cleanse this morning at midnight ( Read more... )

i used to have alot more to say.
i could think more on my toes.
days and weeks pass by
i've lost myself
ive lost you

brooklyn is fucking amazing.
new york is it's own world.
i'm going to see dead prez
and you should come visit me.

fin

life is kicking my ass.
i can't remember ever being this down and out.
is it the money?
is it her?
what about her?
what the fuck?
i asked for help.
blah
you wouldn't understand anyways.

the air that i breathe here is different.
it sets me back two years.
candle lit baths and tears in the fall leaves.
something about today
and tonight
and the way the air escaped my lungs..

maybe this has all been a dream?
there was a dream.

i like to try.
but not with you.
not anymore.
you are as shitty in this as me.
don't let yourself off the hook that easy.
i guess we got it al squared away.

do enjoy your life.

i just got back from a 3 day motorcycle trip at orcas island. it was fucking amazing. i went hiking and kayaking and ate great food and stayed in a cabin. it was my first motorcycle trip. i wondered why people still bothered going on trips in cars. motorcycles are the most amazing things ever made after me ( Read more... )

i feel like i've done all that i can.
this is what i heard you wanted.

p.s. what you said...it's not true.
one day you'll wish you had believed me.