I have fallen....

[wolfe_girl87]

...I am I not sure if I have the energy or strenght to get up.  I fell off the wagon bad last night and I have no idea how to fix anything and I am scared to be honest.  I wish i could explain more but I am scared to post it even private for fear of judgments

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[coinwalker]

You know, I don't know you well at all; we spent maybe an hour chatting at the SF-library rehearsal. But I like you, Amy; there's plainly always a lot going on inside.

If I can provide any real help from 3,000 miles away, I will.

[wolfe_girl87]

I am no longer 3,000 miles away, i am here and happy. But thanks anyway, that made me feel ALOT better!

[coinwalker]

Anytime.

Er... I'm in New York, kind of permanently, is what I meant.

[wolfe_girl87]

oh hahaha, didn;t know we traded

[reichmarshall]

Daddy loves you, and can't wait to see you today.
The ticket will be waiting.

[blackrose900]

Acceptance in the dance scene will never be fully achieved. I hate to say it since it sounds morose, but it's true. There were always be those people that have a elitest, holier-than-thou attitude. But, let me tell you if you haven't figured it out already, they're usually the ones that are the least gentlemanlike. If you're looking for a group that will give you complete acceptance, pick another. No one is perfect and no one, especially in the Fair scene, has any moral high ground to stand on to make you feel bad about yourself. I can't tell you how much that wracked my brain for the past year since I've been dealing with progressively increasing Fair drama. I've lost a number of "friends" but I can't express how better off I am. You don't need people in your life that won't accept you for exactly who you are.

Remember - The only person that can make you feel bad about yourself is YOU. Don't give them permission, they're not worth it. :)

[noirrosaleen]

Hoo boy am I glad I'm not fully in the dance scene...the outskirts look PEACHY right now

[wolfe_girl87]

thanks sweetie. it was funny, despite how sad i was when i wrote this i was feeling good abit myself and it wans an off feeling. I am glad though and now i have people like you in my life to make me feel better. I am so glad we connected. you really are brilliant.

[sweetdarkness87]

Hell, if you hadn't been in therapy, I never would have met you, darling. I would be very unhappy if that had occurred.
I think you're incredibly attractive and beautiful. No one should be able to tell you otherwise and I know that it's hard to accept when you're in an emotional state and everything seems to be going wrong to accept a compliment, but I truly and utterly believe that.
You are one of the strongest girls I know because you were able to reach out, ask for help and get into therapy. I'm so proud of you for that and know that I'm rooting for you every day even if I don't get to talk to you that much.
Ames, I love you. *hugs* I hope your day gets better and that you can hold on to the fact that you do have loving and committed friends that love you just the way you are, nothing else.

Those other fuckers can talk to noirrosaleen's clue-by-four.

[wolfe_girl87]

with people like you in my life i will get better. I hope your yull party is fun and i am sorry i missed it. Want to go shopping after the holiday and hit all the Sales? I miss you and I am so glad I met you.

Love and hugs from now till forever.

[sweetdarkness87]

Eh, Yule this year was fun, but there was a little drama here and there and it didn't go all night as planned. (Everyone being exhausted-like and a couple people getting sick and me, already sick).

I would love to go shopping with you at after x-mas sales. Those are incredibly fun. This time we will hang out. Goshdarnit.