there have been so many things running through my head lately i just dont know what to do anymore ( Read more... )

so my high school years are over. and the funny thing is.. i dont feel sad at all. well, of course im sad to leave all my friends behind. and the school. its like once you step out of the building everything you had stays there too. every memory you made there, every friend; whatever. in 7th grade, i cried my eyes out because i had so many friends ( Read more... )

its one of those nights.

i felt pretty for once.

but it was just another episode of all dressed up and no place to go.

and even though i dont think im "depressed" anymore.. i still feel very distant from everyone.

life sucks.

im scared for my life. and i dont know why. i cant explain whats going on with me unless you have been through it before. there is no explaination. i dont feel like being around anyone. i feel like they dont care. i just cant put up with everyone. im scared of so many things. but i have come to a piece of mind with them. but im just so freaked out ( Read more... )

ok i know this is a song about suicide.. but this being the end of my senior year im thinking about college and the future but also still dwelling in the past and i cant move on from that. i have recently rediscovered this song and i listened to it constantly today and the words started meaning something totally different than what they have meant ( Read more... )

Smile, though your heart is aching ( Read more... )

he makes me so happy!! you dont understand how long its been since ive been truly happy. i dont want it to go away!!!!!!!!!

yes.  i love him. and he makes me happy.

:o )

everyone knows how ive felt this whole year. its basically been hell for me and ive felt soo far apart from everyone. i mean everyone. i felt like everyone hated me and i had no one to turn to. like no one wanted to be seen with me so they would just ignore me instead of just telling me the truth. its like i could sit with everyone pretending ( Read more... )

i am a very happy person lately.

but ivy died.. and i miss her. thats the only sad thing recently