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ill show you who i am
so its been a bit since ive posted and alot of fucking shit has gone down. its been hot and sticky and my body is under the most stress ever. i seem to be handling it like some kind of champ, but it hurts and my chest will squeeze on occasion ( Read more... ) -
please stop.
i fell hard into those unrealistic love stories, and im constantly wishing that they were real. if only those words that he said to her, could be true. if only that picnic by the beach, with the roaring waves crashing against the jagged rocks, could happen. if only. i hold on, and hold on. its like i can't escape from my own head. i can't help ( Read more... ) -
my days are old and gray. my shoes are soggy and plagued. i see you in my rear view mirror.
...and i dont have time to play.
theres blisters on my fingers and arms.
from where you used to burn me.
with your loving soppy touchs.
stop running through my head please.
its starting to drive me tired
and those things you used to do to me
are now as irritating as fleas
its not your fault that i hold on
but i have no one to blame
i have to find your every ( Read more... ) -
miss daisy is hot.
im watching driving miss daisy, and its been a while since ive seen this movie. i was supposed to be with jimmy not writing stupid shit on livejournal at 115am. im fucking tired but i dont want to sleep and i have this urge to carve shit into my body like some emo kid listening to fucking simple plan. fucking shit im so depressed right now. i ( Read more... ) -
if there's a book. i want to buy it.
everything is confusing, and i dont know what to do about it. -
useless anticdotes
So here is the fuckng stitch with me lately. Classes are getting nuts, despite the fact that I only go Monday and Wednesday this Mod, it seems like I cant keep up with the chapters. If Im not going to school, I'm working nights. If I'm not working I'm with my kid. If I dont ave my kid I'm cleaning my room. If Im not cleaning my room, Im with Alissa ( Read more... ) -
afraid
where are the taxes? im nervous that maybe i put the wrong routing number, but im so sure that i haveit right. im so paranoid. i just dont want jimmy to be mad. please please please dont be mad at me. youll get a check, just youll have to wait baby. Please Please Please have that money in my account tomorrow. Please Please for me, do this for me. ( Read more... ) -
dont cry yourself to sleep
its saturday and my boyfriend went to a keg and egg party. he hasnt attempted to call me back at all. i took the whole fucking day off and did nothing. nothing at all. but smoke pot and watch a god damn movie. i mean it was boondock saints, but jesus fucking christ. i was hoping to get smashed or something. i dont know. i need a car or something ( Read more... ) -
dont break the house rules
leave everyone and their mother the fucking number/ because if you cant be found then youve been kidnapped/ what has happened to my generation/ are you serious, because i was sure the only person who needed to look for me is my mother/ call my work/ pose/ fucking search the ends of the world/ im passed out on the couch in troy/ drunk/ im 21.. thats ( Read more... ) -
complexity, temptation, and thirst
blackened out the small space that you reside
trying my best to stop
stop my fingers from moving closer
stop my body from moving farther
and drag along my will, my mind, and my hope
trying to build the trust in him
he won't hurt my darling
but he wont touch me either
and pull his hands up to my face so I can have that thirst
my eyes point and dodge
they ( Read more... )