dont cry yourself to sleep

[whiskey_bullets]

its saturday and my boyfriend went to a keg and egg party. he hasnt attempted to call me back at all. i took the whole fucking day off and did nothing. nothing at all. but smoke pot and watch a god damn movie. i mean it was boondock saints, but jesus fucking christ. i was hoping to get smashed or something. i dont know. i need a car or something because this fucking sucks anal. 
i really really want to go out and i cant.
the one night my mom says
go out and have fun
i fucking dont.