3 hours of phone conversations with sofi yesterday and i think she finally understands.

unfortunately that's still going to change nothing for at least a few months.

also, having medical bills from years ago in which they take all 700 dollars out of your bank account sucks. especially when your rent money is in there and you don't get paid for 2

i decided today that i might never really be over her, which means i can never really let her go.

i'm going to start seeing a therapist again. i can't be alone, i hate myself most days, and i definitely have anger issues.

i spent all day yesterday in airports or on planes. it sucked. and i got home at 6 this morning to some sick ass drama.

i'm in california. i'm having a blast ( Read more... )

i have a horrible time with being ignored. especially when i still feel like i didn't do anything wrong. and stop me if i'm mistaken here. but after we broke up, while we weren't talking, and before we started hanging out again, i hooked up with another girl. i didn't tell her about it at the time because we weren't talking and i felt bad about ( Read more... )

one would really think i'd learn. all secrets eventually come out. and yet i still hold them. i still believe i can keep things under wraps. and i still believe it's all for them ( Read more... )

i got all the line work for my chestpiece done today. it's siiiiick.

also, most painful thing i've ever experienced. seriously.

pictures soon.

she became the first person to technically dump me since 6th grade.
korey did it, but i was just waiting for her to/pushing her into it.

feminists of the world rejoice. his cold black heart may be broken.

here's to trying to avoid self-destruction as usual.

i haven't written in this in a while, but i'm in a mood to whine, and where better than here ( Read more... )

for those of you in richmond this weekend for the days of best friends.

holla. 6143908775

it's little victories like the one tonight that make me smile. in fact, it was only one of numerous successful confrontations today ( Read more... )