FTM drag strap-on porn! That's right, folks!

So, apparently out her in the bay area there's a lot of indie-girl-made alt porn. I'm only scratching the surface so far but I like what I see.

"Furry Girl" (her thing is being all-natural, not shaving) is a fellow nerdy perv like me, who has multiple web porn projects, and is in the process of creating ( Read more... )

This is the letter I wrote Kent and Amber about my JFK retreat in the woods.

The first night we all gathered, ate together (all fresh, vegetarian fare, super tasty) and chatted with each other. Everyone has such an interesting story in terms of how they found this program. Haha, we’re all such a buncha weirdos who have had to search hard to find a ( Read more... )

The company is going well. At this point each of us is only making a few hundred a month, so we are working on ways to push it and make more, which basically means getting the website up and running. Until we're making thousands, I'm still of course job hunting here and there, and I do have a job interview at UC Berkeley tomorrow so we'll see.

I ( Read more... )

I have a deep, embarrassing confession to make. Underneath this hard, cynical, emotionless sex shell, I am actually a big sappy romantic.

I've decided that if I ever end up with a longterm/lifepartner situation, we'll have some sort of ceremony, and we will sing a duet to "All I Ask of You," from the Phantom of the Opera, and that'll be like our ( Read more... )

I am so proud of myself I totally went up to Roxxie today in real life, not email or texting, and asked if she'd like to hang out sometime.

She's a super attractive woman who runs http://www.cyber-dyke.net/ and I *know* she's looking for female subs to play with. But also I really want to ( Read more... )

I am realizing that the main source of my discomfort these days has to do with a feeling of a fading self, or lack of identity. Or rather, the discomfort has come from my fighting that process. I think that I need to let it be; it's inevitable, and has to happen, I think.

In Madison my identity was set - I felt comfortable in my own skin as a ( Read more... )

(this conversation happened right after I showed Nikki pics of Ingrid Bergman, who I have had a crazy obsession with from the age of 12, stealing her out-of-print autobio from the library and such)

Nikki: She's pretty.
Frejya85: ...?
Frejya85: that's ALL?
Frejya85: :p
Nikki: :P
Nikki: I think she looks really straight, and while she's pretty, I'm not ( Read more... )

Oh my god so for this show I get to belt out a kink-parodied version of "Tomorrow," from Annie. How rad is that!

The three of us just belt the whole thing and I get to sing solo for the bridge part:
"When my top is extreme
and mean,
and scary,
I just stick out my ass
with sass
and screeeeeaammm oooohhhh..."

it's great. What's more, I can't believe I CAN ( Read more... )

I NEED sex sometime soon.

This whole celibacy bullshit ain't workin'.

I'll bet that in a relatively short period of time, I'm not going to be able to get a "normal" academic neuroscience job anymore, hahahha!


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