SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW I CAN EAT 1200-1500 CALORIES A DAY COMPOSED OF HARDLY ANY CARBS AND MOSTLY VEGETABLES AND PROTEIN, AND HOW I CAN EXERCISE HARD AND OFTEN, AND YET I STILL CANNOT LOSE ANY WEIGHT.

i feel like a huge fatass.

i'm studying for an exam ( Read more... )

the sky tonight at sundown looked like god himself ( Read more... )

i'm all sorts of fucked up right now, kids ( Read more... )

i didn't work out today because i wanted to prove to myself that i couldn't. i haven't been exercising excessively in terms of hours per day, but i don't like the creeping feeling that i absolutely MUST exercise every day, or i'm a bad person, or lazy, or [insert whatever synonym for slovenly and disgusting here]. as i result, of course, i feel ( Read more... )

i'm not engaging with people. all my conversations seem one-sided, with the other person making all the effort and me sitting there like some kind of mute idiot, nodding and smiling and saying "yeah" over and over again. i feel detached ( Read more... )

i think there is a little bit of manic tossed in my depression salad ( Read more... )

can't let you be ( Read more... )

last night was surreal. home is funny, and i don't know how i get myself into these situations ( Read more... )

i can't decide whether i'm disgusted with myself or with everyone else.