all i want is easy action, baby
i think there is a little bit of manic tossed in my depression salad.
this morning i was so low; i dragged myself to and from class, got home, took a couple of pills with a drink and went to sleep until mid-afternoon. then i got up and walked around like a zombie for a bit, until i suddenly felt completely revitalized. i subsequently worked out for an hour, took a shower, studied my ass off for tests i don't have until next week, and made my first and only meal of the day full of protein and vegetables. i started fantasizing about the future, about all the possibilities and interests i could explore. i started thinking how silly i was to feel so alone last night and this morning, when clearly i was capable, and self-sufficient, and could be more than happy drifting through life alone indulging all my whims. i've been listening to music entirely too loudly for my cats' liking, and i've been making grand plans, researching new cities and jobs and activities. at the moment i still feel a little high and jittery - exalted with all the possibilities life has to offer, but also terrified by the imminence of reality crashing down around me.
what's wrong with me?
this morning i was so low; i dragged myself to and from class, got home, took a couple of pills with a drink and went to sleep until mid-afternoon. then i got up and walked around like a zombie for a bit, until i suddenly felt completely revitalized. i subsequently worked out for an hour, took a shower, studied my ass off for tests i don't have until next week, and made my first and only meal of the day full of protein and vegetables. i started fantasizing about the future, about all the possibilities and interests i could explore. i started thinking how silly i was to feel so alone last night and this morning, when clearly i was capable, and self-sufficient, and could be more than happy drifting through life alone indulging all my whims. i've been listening to music entirely too loudly for my cats' liking, and i've been making grand plans, researching new cities and jobs and activities. at the moment i still feel a little high and jittery - exalted with all the possibilities life has to offer, but also terrified by the imminence of reality crashing down around me.
what's wrong with me?