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Alone
I don't deal well with weekends, frequently. I get all out of kilter, and for a while, I wasn't sure what was causing it. Now, I've got a vague glimmering, though I could be wrong. Personally, I think it all has to do with people. Or more specifically, the lack thereof. I suck at dealing with people, but moreso than that, I suck at dealing with ( Read more... ) -
Masks
Somedays, I think that I must be wearing a mask over my true feelings. I act too happy, all the damned time, and even when I'm not in a good mood, I'm still easily distracted by pretty much anything. I do tend to worry and obsess over things, but even then, I don't always get emotionally invested in them. The few times I did get emotionally ( Read more... ) -
ADD
I wish there was better information about ADD out there. It's funny, because I always get a bit surprised that people don't realize I have ADD until I tell them. Really, what it comes down to is that I don't fit the "definition" of ADD. At least, not the common, public knowledge definition of ADD that most people are thinking of. I'm not a young ( Read more... ) -
Messing Around With Reality
Life, it seems, likes to let me bounce all over the place, wondering what's going to happen next. Actually, that's a bit of a lie. I'm almost in a bit of a rut, mentally, since schools not really challenging me beyond keeping myself on task, which I've been doing much better at this semester. That leaves me mostly having to deal with emotions and ( Read more... ) -
People, and the Great Divide
I've always had trouble dealing with people. Whether it's talking to them, or just being in the general vicinity without acting awkward... it's tough, and sometimes, my concentration will slip just enough to let some of it out. It's difficult, but doable, so I manage a consistent level of social adeptness and I mask whatever other issues I am ( Read more... ) -
Keeping it together
You know, not having updated for a while, I forgot how much this thing can help with my mental health. Actually giving vent to my obsessions, rather than talking them over and over, is something that I didn't realize how much I missed until I actually was forced to think about it. It's weird, but when I put something down in here, even if people do ( Read more... ) -
Of Two Minds, Which is Better?
One annoying habit I have, especially when talking about my feelings, is my tendency to rely on descriptions of parts of my mind, without ever giving enough attention to the whole. I'll concentrate on figuring out why, for example, a part of me wants something, without trying to find out if that' really what I want, or more of an idle wish. Or even ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I've been feeling very lethargic lately. I'm not entirely sure why, but if I had to guess, I'd term it as something like mental/emotional whiplash. It's not just in one direction either, I feel like my head and heart are on entirely different bungee cords which someone is using to jump-rope with, or some other equally confused metaphor. A ton of ( Read more... ) -
Scared Wasteless
I've been thinking some on what I'm afraid of (and by thinking, I mean freaking out and then looking back on what I was freaking out about), and I've realized that the majority of my concerns hinge upon a sort of fear of losing friends. It's not quite a fear of abandonment, as these don't necessarily have to be friends that I deal with on a regular ( Read more... )