Keeping it together

[wallycaine]

You know, not having updated for a while, I forgot how much this thing can help with my mental health. Actually giving vent to my obsessions, rather than talking them over and over, is something that I didn't realize how much I missed until I actually was forced to think about it. It's weird, but when I put something down in here, even if people do respond, I still get the sensation of yelling it out to the void. For me at least, it's a good thing. Sometimes, I just have to forget the audience, and say my lines regardless of what may happen. I never know the result, but good or bad, I usually feel like I've expelled some little demons, and can stop annoying people with them. I think, here, being able to actually obsess about my obsessions without feeling like a freak or annoying someone, helps me work them out of my system and deal with them normally.

I suppose this should be fair warning, it's quite possible this journal could get a bit whiney and emo while I work out six months accumulated toxin. On the other hand, I could turn out to have less to talk about on that lines than I thought, so maybe it won't. Either way, I'm going to try and do so without worry about my audience, of which there is none, and general other rules of theatre etiquette. Hopefully, even if it does get bad, it will slowly get better, or at least not worse. I guess at this point, there's not much to worry about though. Hello again world, and may the association be slightly better this time around.