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Everything is Wrong
Someone came out of the dream
...and it was me. -
Child With the Ghost
If I had one wish, I'd wish to talk with you
I have some questions, things only you could know
If I had one wish, I'd wish to talk with you
Nothing you can feel, can feel as cold as this -
Seriously?
Sometimes I am really not sure how exactly I keep going.
Is it sheer stubbornness? Is it stupidity?
Am I seriously going to throw myself at San Francisco again?
When I was 26 this was less tiring...
I turn 33 in 5 days.
Fuck it, let's do this.
Can't wait 'til that "location" field here on LJ says "San Francisco, CA" again. -
The Seeds of Pain
I carry the seeds of pain within me
I plant them in everyone I love
The flowers that grow are dark and lonely
They’re reaching for heaven -
Home
It's funny. Ever since Patrick and I split up, I've had a really weird relationship with this apartment. I love it but I just couldn't do anything here because I was just... heartbroken. When Patrick moved out, I got roommates, who lived in the master bedroom, and I lived in the tiny guest room. I'm anxious around people, ESPECIALLY people I live ( Read more... ) -
Clean
My home is clean now.
Everything is really nice here.
I just need to find a way to keep this place without getting evicted, since I'm still desperately unemployed and it's getting ridiculous. -
Never Take Fire
It's been a little over a year since Patrick and I broke up and I moved out of, and back into, my apartment. I've made the space my own, but...
You keep scratching the faces off coins ( Read more... ) -
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I've begun making lists to follow for my life.
It's really boring and tedious but I'm sort of in a space right now where I need to try and bring order to chaos.
I never thought I'd have a list which included "shower" and "wash dishes." -
Into the Void
I want to talk to you about mental illness. Last week was, apparently, "Mental Illness Awareness Week." I guess I was too busy trying to force myself to eat and take a shower to realize that. Anyway, here's the thing ( Read more... ) -
Hanging Around
I've been trying to do something with myself that isn't sitting around feeling sorry for myself, so I started taking aerial arts classes at a studio in Seattle.
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