I wish I knew what to do.

I still love you and it increasingly hurts as each day goes by.

I'm tired of feeling this way.

I am looking for people who are willing to entertain and debate my views on racial politics, but I'm afraid I haven't cemented them down in my own head at this moment. I'm not entirely sure if it is important, especially right now. I talked to my mom about some thoughts I have at the moment, and I think she was afraid to be honest with me. I'm ( Read more... )

I guess lately, my thoughts have consummed me. This brings me to toss and turn at night and day and curse only to myself. I don't curse in front of others, but I probably should, to let them know what I'm feeling. I have so much to be grateful for, so much to appreciate and be joyous about. I am blessed beyond belief, and yet, I feel awful. I ( Read more... )

So, yes, the rumors are true, I did see Billy Corgan live ( Read more... )

Half of the week is over, and it has been quite an amazing week. I have been shadowing Pharmacists in the different areas of the hospital, and have learned and seen many interesting things. The first day I listened in on a teaching on an opium tincture for a methadone baby. Yesterday, I got to witness an coronary angioplasty, which is where they ( Read more... )

It hailed today. I don't recall ever seeing hail. I took pictures ( Read more... )

Staring at the Blue Moon and savoring the Hershey's chocolate from down the hall, I find peace. Sitting on my porch, I hear the train, not in the distance, just down the road actually ( Read more... )

Today, a lonely nurse, in a ward all by herself, gave me a Butterfinger ( Read more... )

I met a lady named Donna, who's daughter went into the hospital for pnemonia and was infected with a nosocomial infection, which they haven't found a treatment to cure her. Donna lives in the room next to me.

She offered me some of her hazlenut coffee as I ate my grits. All she can do now is wait and prepare green beans.

I feel empty.

I'm in Asheville, NC, and tomorrow, shall be all alone in this city. I think I am more worried about being alone without friends, than I am about my internship ( Read more... )