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Anxiety
Tonight i am sleepless. My mind just won't shut up lately and it's exhausting. I've decided to scribble then here so that maybe i can sort them and quiet them ( Read more... ) -
Circle of life.
My Dad's dog died tonight. He was an old dog and had a good long life. My dad left the dog in my care while he went on a quick trip out of town. His name was Bodhi and he was a good dog. I didn't do anything wrong, it was just his time to go ( Read more... ) -
New adventures
It's odd. Every now and then I remember that i have this account and i get the urge to poor myself into it. Today I had to say goodbye to my close friend, Mary, because her parents are moving to Oregon. Well, actually she's my daughters' friend, but I've known her since she was about 8. She was in girl scouts with Lois and Hope and I've been a ( Read more... ) -
Change for a new year
A wise personce said to me, "Do you ever just wake up, look at your situation and just scream to yourself, 'I DESERVE BETTER!'? If not, you should ( Read more... ) -
Drama drama drama!
My life has unraveled its comfortable and convenient little jacket. I'm currently unemployed and over everything. Although everything that's happened this week has sparked a major case of anxiety, it's been cathartic. I'm awake for the first time in years. I'm moving forward and there's vey little that can stop me. I don't want to leave anyone ( Read more... ) -
Motivation for motivation
Why is it that some people just have an easier time getting motivated to do things. Their lives just seem easier. I know they work for it. I and I know what I need to do to make my life easier, i just can't get motivated to do it. How do i get moving? How do I shake off this weight? -
Epiphany
So, I've sort of rejoined the BDSM community. Last week, I went to the local munch and I forgot how much i missed the personalities. To be absolutely honest, I'm not so much into it as i am a supporter, though I've dabbled ( Read more... ) -
Uuuugghhh
Another night where I'm beating my face on my pillow. I need to sleep, but of course I'm being haunted. Let me sleep!!! Though, some of the things tickling my brain tonight aren't too bad ( Read more... ) -
The neighborhood of make believe and the ongoing battle.
A couple of weeks ago, My sister and I went to see "Won't You be my Neighbor?" The biography of Mr. Fred Rogers. I cried through the whole thing. He was genuine and caring and truly loved his fellow man. I cried for two reasons. First: it was beautiful to see someone fight so hard to let you know that someone loves you and that it's okay to feel ( Read more... ) -
Smells like LJ
Wow. Its definitely been a while. I don't even recognize the names on my friends list anymore. All I know, is that I can't sleep and the memory of this blog crossed my mind. So I retrived my password and decided to regail this page with some thoughts. Lots of things of the past have been plaguing me. Missed opportunities, passed arguments, ( Read more... )