At least someone still comes here... :)

It's been so long, I don't even know where to start.

Soooo.... I wont. BYE BYE!

A lot of stuff's happened which I haven't spoken about to many people, some of you will know. But I've come to the conclusion that I could never be a perfect mother, and no child deserves to be brought into this world anyway.

I don't know how to tell Pad, though.

Am I a bad person?

Nothing in my life ever changes, no matter what happens. I just have to sit and wait in the same old routine. Even when something major happens, the routine somehow manages to weedle its way back.

I'm in a terrible, terrible mood. I have such a large amount of stress clouding me lately, and even I don't know how to get rid of it... I've tried everything... everything medical, psychological.... God, everything.

What's the matter with me? I feel so fucking lonely.

I'm a Cassita Fan! The fanlisting was a great idea, and she's just gorgeous.

In answer to Rob's question : My boyfriend travels around a lot with his work. He spends an equal amount of time in the UK, but obviously, not all of it can be spent with me seen as I'm at uni and his family are up in Manchester. So it's split. For about a quarter of his time he is with me, which is hard. It hasn't always been like this, about a ( Read more... )

I need security in my relationship, and it's becoming harder and harder to convince myself that I actually have it when my boyfriend is hundreds of miles away.

I am so bored recently.

I have nothing to write about but I figured I'd let you all know that I'm still alive (near enough, anyway).

Woohoo! Had a fucking fabulous Christmas, with my baby. :) :) Guess what he bought li'l ole me? A diamond ring. A plain (but huuuge) diamond ring... Beats the bath shit I got him, but oh well ( Read more... )