livejournal makes me all angsty and reminds me of unhappy times.

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so, i thought i was going to faint yesterday when my sister told me what happened to jessica p. i mean, people who went to decatur had died before but not anyone i had a lot of contact with. no one i had worked with, and chatted with, and talked to her about where she wanted to go to school when she graduated. i am so sad for her close friends and ( Read more... )

my mouth gets me in trouble. i don't know how i haven't learned to think before i speak by now. but i haven't. and i hate it. i cause things i never intended to cause. i feel like shit about it. and on his birthday, too.

joooooeeeeeey. wtf why do our schedules suck.

I FEEL AMAZING. i really do. i'm happier than i have been in a while. don't ask me why because i have no fucking clue but everything just feels so perfect! i feel like nothing can bring me down.

god i love life.

oh, also, i lost more weight.

so my hair is short and i've lost 19 pounds.

my hair is short.

the most freeing thing happened to me yesterday. i found out what i was going to do with my life. i have a plan. i have something to fall back on. something to rely on. i'm sick of spending every day worrying about my future, but now, i know. and it feels like i can breathe for the first time since the summer.

well. thinking. it kinda sucks. and i need to just get all this out of my system. so here is everything that i'm thinking about ( Read more... )

sarah j:
i had two dreams with you in them over the past week. and i saw your brother last night. and it made me sad and feel like a dick for being so out of touch. i'm really sorry. i've just been really busy and i know you have been too. i miss you and i'm sorry. i love you.