i had two not so good dieting days this week and gained back about half a pound. plus i didn't exercise until yesterday morning and this morning. next week will be better. i promise.

back to school oh back to school.

oh yeah i lost one pound last week.

one week. ten pounds lost.

this is just the beginning i have promised myself.

so, i didn't get the job. even though i heard i did really really well in my interview and everything and my stupid ditzy ex-roommate got the job since she cheated for it. and i just don't know why i didn't get it. i want to call and ask why. i don't care too much but the fact that she got it drives me insane. she literally cheated her way in. ( Read more... )

i cannot concentrate on anything. a million thoughts a second are just racing through my head. dear god i just need spring break so badly. i hate class right now. the only one i enjoy going to is my craft class. but even that i have a hard time getting myself out of my room to go to it.

i really really really hate thinking.

i feel like i have so much i want to say but i can't figure out how to put it in to words. why have i been so emotional lately? that's not me. that's not how i am. all i know is that i feel like i'm searching for something and don't know what it is.

today, at 3pm, i have an interview to be an RA next year because i need the free room/board. i am so nervous i honestly might throw up. my mom keeps telling me, "it would be such a blessing, it would be so much off my shoulders ( Read more... )

it's been like, 5 weeks since i drank soda. no reason, i just decided one night i was going to stop drinking it ( Read more... )

i think i've come to terms with the fact that i will never, ever, ever, be comfortable with myself.

nothing to say.