( my best. you can have it, if you want it )

i get this weird feeling sometimes when i wish that my life would have skipped over the age of 17. that i somehow could have just turned 18 without ever being 17. but then i think about, and i wouldn't give up a damn thing really. brayden is the love of my life, and i don't know where i would be without him. okay, maybe i do, and maybe it would be ( Read more... )

things i want to buy and how much it'll cost/how much saved:

camera (any crappy cheap one) - 0/$200
webcam (for skyping, to hold over until camera) - 0/$40
bleach and conditon (aveda) - 15/$50
clothes for me (h&m forever21, winter shit) - 0/$100
clothes for brayden (target h&m, winter) - 0/$50
car - 0/$2500

i don't think i've felt such an extreme dislike for anyone in my entire life. i honest to god hope that this is the final feelings i'm going to feel for you. you've been nothing but negative for the last cuople months and i don't need this shit. keep bringing me down EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY and making all of your friends think i'm needy and ( Read more... )

Late night phone calls that end in surprise ( Read more... )

you can set sail to the west if you want to. pass the horizon so i can't even see you, far from here where the beaches are wide just leave me your wake to remember you by.

everyone has secrets. you're mine.

why do i miss you so much? why do i want to just be in your arms right now, cuddeling and kissing. i miss being around you. i've been thinking up a date to take you on.. but its like my head/heart/body are all thinking a hundred different things. this sucks. i miss you. i don't know why its so hard ( Read more... )

i can't stop crying. i keep thinking back and remembering us laying in bed together, cuddeling up to you and kissing you. just the feeling of you being there. the feeling of your arms around me... how soft your skin feels. i miss it so much. i miss you so much it hurts.. i feel like i haven't seen you in months. i miss you.. i really do. and you ( Read more... )

to do list:
FINISH READING THIS DAMN FANFIC SO IT STOPS TAKING OVER MY LIFE